Okay, okay. I'll start blogging again for Lent. No more avoidance of my responsibilities. No more self-shaming. I would be surprised if even a handful of folks had noticed the failure of my Lenten discipline, but even so I apologize.
See, in terms of Lent, this is how it is with me. I get excited, I make an effort, and I fail miserably. And O! that Lent was an isolated case. No, the fact is that I have difficulty maintaining self-discipline in many practices, often to my detriment. As ever, I require a community of accountability to have any hope of changing an established pattern. I thought I was doing so well, but now it's been nearly two weeks since my last blog post.
I don't actually think God cares, in a judgment-y way, that I have failed in my publicly-stated Lenten discipline. I know God's love and forgiveness are still for me. And in some small ways it is a comfort to know that I am who I have always been - heavier on intention than on follow-through. Nonetheless, again I am confronted with my own weakness, and I ask forgiveness of God, of whoever might be reading, and of myself.
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